Today, a health care professional asked me if my pump made me feel more normal. I know what they were implying – does the precision of the pump and how it works resemble that of someone without diabetes, thus making me “feel” normal. She did not mean it to be a negative comment.
Yet, it bothered me. Normal? What is normal? Who is normal? Anyone?
I guess it depends on what we all mean by normal? What are the parameters for normal in our own minds?
I don’t feel normal because I don’t know what normal means. How can I feel what I cannot define. Normal?
But I do know that diabetes as a whole does not make me abnormal, special, weak, frail, or sick. Yes, I have days when a low or high blood sugar may trigger symptoms that are not the most pleasant – sweating, fatigue, ravaging hunger, crankiness. But, it does not last forever. It is a moment in time. And people without diabetes have “moments’ too where they do not feel 100%. It is part of life whether or not you have or do not have diabetes.
I like to believe that diabetes gives me an extraordinary life. A life where I dedicate time to taking care of myself by exercising, eating healthy, resting, and living. And as a result, I feel great, happy, fulfilled, rested, fit, and satisfied. Above and beyond normal.
Great on the inside and outside. Knowing that I am taking steps to be as healthy as possible for my diabetes and for myself is very empowering and rewarding.
Seeing and feeling my actions and choices is amazing. Knowing that I am responsible for creating my own wellness. And diabetes just happens to be a part of that experience.
For me, being a diabetic has been an extraordinary journey. And there is so much more to go.
I hope all other diabetics feel the same way. We are extraordinary!